Memories

When I am 12,

I knew you and your music..
I wanted to support you.
It was an age of growing up.
The very age when I start to have crush on guys.
Your music marked a kind of colour..

When I am 13 and 14,

I started to notice the cantopop because of you.
That was the first I saw you in concert 1994.
That was also the year I saw you in airport.
That was also the time I came to know some of my friends at present

When I am 15,

my grandmother pass away..
You comforted me..with your words..
I was doing badly in my studies..
My father was angry.
And I was often bullied in class.
You comforted me with your presence..
That was the year you came to Singapore to promote <>
We were there..

When I am 16,

That was a year you came to Singapore for cruise.

We tried to follow you..

Opening the car window along the roadside,

You told us follow no more..be good and wait for you at the airport..

We were good then.. We listen to you..

About 1 month later,

you came to Singapore again,

for the promotion of <>..

We were there too..

Behind you all the way!!

Shortly after, I graduated from my secondary school ..

I did quite well in studies..
That was the year you left the entertainment scene..

I miss you..

But I knew you might be a happier person then..

When I am 17,
I accept and thought that I will never see you again in person..
I decided that I will leave a corner of my heart to you in remembrance..
It was an age where Hk returns to china..
An age I felt sad for the canto market..
An age I quit from a famous course of study..
An age I start to dress up..

An age where I became more confident..

Everything change..
But your music never leaves me.

Same.. I miss you.


When I am 18 ,

I started to do all kind of funny jobs..
An age where places are getting crowded
An age where there are all kinds of artiste
I still remember and miss you.

When I am 19

I enter into a performing arts school..
You encourage me with your letters..
I needed it that time..

When I am 20,

I like a guy secretly..

leaving your CD with him one day accidentally..

He returned it to me one day..

We lost touch..eventually.

It hurts..

I thought of you at that time..

I miss you somehow..

It was also during that year,

I received a letter from you.

When I was 21 years old..

Many people celebrate birthday with me..

Many people give me presents..

That was the year you wrote me a letter too,

one month before my I turn 21.

That was my earliest present..

Even though I think you do not know my birthday actually..

I 'm happy. Really happy..

Ever since, I hoped for your letter once a year..:p

When I am 22

I did not receive letter from you..
there was a kind of sadness that came out of love frankly.

Was wondering would you remember me?

Told myself it would be hard to reply to every fan..

Anyway this is the year I became a working adult..

Earning and spending my own money :)

When I am 23

I received your letter!

It came in the least expected manner..

I was happy..

I was thankful..

When I am 24..

There's more news of you somehow..

I envy the hongkong fans..

But I am happy that you are happy with life..

I cheered for you in my heart..

When I am 25.. ,

You are back for love!

It seems abstract..

Few weeks later,

you came to Singapore for Philip Wein.. in the month of April..

April fool joke?

Nope! Its true. You came..

I saw you..

Finally..after 10 years..

May 25-27..

You rock the stage at HK coliseum with memories.

I will remember..

Thank you thank you..

For coming back for love..

Back For Love

You are back for love,
I am here for love..
with fond memories..

A figure standing on stage,
facing the audience at large..
You are truly sincere and appreciative.
Oh everyone wants a piece of you..
Tears in the heart, tears in the air..
Voices and cheers filled the place..
Oh you stretch your hands,
and you stretch your voice to full extent in full capacity..for us.
those who are far,
and those who are near.

Oh, I miss you.
truely, deeply, madly..
You are near.
You are far.

Oh how we have all grown up,
as we continued to be better people.
From teenager to working adult,
And you have children now..
A mother of cats and dogs..

Oh, I support you!
I knew you knew that..
Perhaps the greatest given support would be to know that we are all doing well.
May blessings be with you all the days of your life..
Many loves be with you and your love ones.

You are a blessing.
Thank you.

My Sunday

Waking up for the day, I thought I have more time than it really was. Anyway I carried on with my daily routine and head straight to church. Guijin was not there with me..I wish she was there..

Anyway stripe of tears rolled down my cheek when I saw a scene from a film abt the love of a black mother to her white daughter.She never gave up even when her daughter forsake her because she is black and she is white when she actually is a black too..

Service seems fast today..I headed home for lunch and watched my rented drama service while having my lunch. Did really enjoyed.

After which, I headed to Toa Payoh Lor 8 to meet Guijin to borrow camera from her..I then went to Orchard to meet the birthday gal of the day n pei,hui,man..

Change of plan..we went to sakae shushi instead of swensen coz yin went to swensen earlier on..we went to the sakae in hereen..i had teriyaki don,man had katsu don, pei had teriyaki ramen, hui had tempura ramen..(But I knoe she will give the dish a 'F' for fail.) Ironically the birthday gal did not order any main dish.On and off we juz took watever we want from the sushi bar too..We bought yin a cheese cake from TCC..i tink its nice!! As usual we borrowed lighter and placed it in front of yin out of nowhere..lol

Everyone was so full but I think it seems like nothing is inside my stomach yet..I hate to admit..but I really felt hungry :p thus i went to buy crab claws from old chang kee and we went to Starbucks after which. From there I bought Green Tea Franpacinno (If it is spelt correctly..) Nice , but I thought $6.60 was ex for just a casual drink at night time.

Anyway we chat and rot there for a while and went to zara to shop n to win shop..After which we went home..but of course birthday gal of the day..would be different..she got chauffer..Man took bus,me,pei n hui took train..

Thanks for that day gals..! Yin,Happy Birthday! May you be born again soon also.. God bless you.

My Sat

I went to the library after my work last saturday alone, hoping to grab someone for lunch at the same time. Nonetheless, that was so last minute..all not free to meet me..so I guess I will embrace time myself then..On the journey, I was thinking y not not spend the weekend to do some volunteer work..to make it a productive one and at the same time I would widen my contacts..at the same time waiting to for a date..lol

Well time flies fast.I have reached the library but it was not productive for some reason..After which I went for my lunch - KFC and headed straight home expecting to read the newspaper that I bought and watched a VCD that i have rented.

Met a sis to go for Miracle Service.I was late for the proposed time. I have witness how Jesus you healed my fellow brothers and sisters there. Thank you.I stood up also during healing time..to pray for my complexion and also Pei's mum for her legs. Father I pray that you will answer my prayer and that you will increase my faith. Surely you are the best doctor and healer in the whole universe!

Had supper with someone at the admiralty foodcourt. I ate ma po dou fu with slight hesistation considering the oil floating on the floating surface of the claypot. Yummy its nice..but i decided not to finish all..when I knew how capable I am to eat 2nd round of rice..We had a meaningful yet serious conversation to which i gotta admit something gone missing..Something disturb me..

And I further noted that we man dun like to answer certain question or to speak with certain language...

Father help me to learn and progress..and be a better person.

Another Weekend

I look at the time..its 12.50am..10 min to knock off..another sat..today i am wondering wat m i going to do for the day..going for miracle service praying for the sick..bringing a brother in spiritual sickness to church, go east coast cycling,..library..reading.. or what..?

i am so restless..hope that it will not be another lonely saturday..

7 May 06

I wake up lazily on the day of May 7. Was feeling a bit sad that Da Guijin is not joining me for service, and was secretly hoping that she might change her mind, and meet me at the usual time and usual place..'Father, pls change her heart, and prompt her with your holy spirit to visit you at your place..' , I was telling God at a little corner of my heart..At the other corner, I was thinking she won't change her mind last min.. Anyway looking at the my handphone, I will then know..

'1 message' was reflected..i was thinking excitedly, could she change her mind? Thank you Lord! You answered my prayer.

After service, Da Guijin and I went to Toa Payoh for lunch and I always enjoyed the conversation with her..and saw Hui and Kenny there along the way at the later part..(dunno why..felt that kenny look a bit pai seh when he saw me..forgot to ask hui abt that..)

At about 4pm, I parted with Da Guijin and meet pei,yin,man and hui..Quickly we went for a small bite and hop onto hui's car..My 1st time..which i gotta admit i was seated so comfortably that i dun feel like getting up..always enjoyed being a passenger..and felt gd being drived by a very good and long close friend..

Upon reaching marina bay, i had the honour of playing pool with the gal of the day..man!..it has been long since the last we challenged each other..we played 4 times..out of it i won 2 times she won 2 times..hee..i was happy..it spurred my interest for pool once again..i hope i will be better at the game..improving each time..

after which, dinner time with messy table and heat..! even though i seldom initiate bbq n steamboat, i quite appreciate the warm atmosphere..and the considerate thoughts of my 4 angels in choosing the stall with chillie crabs...

Around 8pm or ++, we have more or less settled with our mess of food..we proceed to hop onto hui's car once again..and arrived at kallang river..

well honestly, confronted with river, a batch of tall buildings and the so called nicely packed houses from far view..I wonder what will it be like 10 yrs from then on..i sincerely hope that everyone will be doing well, happily married, each having their own household living,or a dreamed lifestyle etc or whatever..(although i dun know whether is that what they want..) and also I wish that they had known Christ, the truth,the creator..i wish that with love..When will that day be.. the day where we will sit at his throne, reiging victoriously..forever and ever in eternity..(For my beloved family and siblings and all friends too..)

we left the beautiful place about 1 hr plus later..and hopped onto hui's car..heading towards home..

Happy Birthday Man! The day marked your existence of 25 years..! May you be born again and be the chosen ones..I will jump with u on that day! Hope you like our present..and also the day..I love you.

pei,hui and yin, i love u gals too.

God bless all of you.

My 1st time

Waking up for the day on last Saturday 6 May 2006, I am excited. I crawled out of my comfortable bed lazily n excitedly as mummy asked me to wash up quickly..

It will be my 1st time to vote for election!! Somehow knowing that I have a part in what I would say one of the most important event in Spore, the very place which I was borned, I felt honoured..even though I was'nt really clear..not clear my votes should throw at which parties..I heard too much stories...not clear hw's the procedure like..not clear who will be there exactly..will there be two parties standing in between..?

I have never been a person who has shown much interest in politics..(even in elsewhere) Election '06 has forced me to look at the news intently with interest sometimes because I have to vote...and I know every votes count...and I wanted to be fair to a certain extent...even though fairness is hard to measure sometimes.. I wanted to put a null void, but I dun want to waste the privellege of having able to vote n there being my 1st time.

Anyway after i finished the morning daily routine, mummy n chen sitong n i set off to woodlands ring sec school. (Mummy n i wear the same slippers.)

The small paper was passed to me to cross the party i want to support. I actually look a bit left n right to check if anyone was looking at me in casting my vote :p i suppose that was uncooled..hee..

After which, mummy n chen sitong n i went to the nearby coffee shop for meal whose business i suppose was exceptionally good..

Went home after that..