They don't know, but Lord You know.. That's enough

This is a long overdue blog entry which was suppose to be put on earlier ..

One month back, I was busily planning and doing my event.. as there would be 3 events coming up on a single weekend.. I felt overwhelmed to be honest.. tired physically and mentally.. and most of all, I felt lonely with the heavy burden of work with 3 to 4 weeks of weekend all burnt out and having to take medicine everyday.. i miss my family, friends, my personal space, my hobbies.. and my social life tremendously..

That night, I stayed in the office till 10plus alone.. suddenly i became self-pity, thinking that i am so alone.. no one would ever know my struggles.. and really wanted badly to broke down as I felt at least it makes me feel better.. however, i knew i need to rush my work and keep up in good spirit.. no time for me to be a cry baby despite being a gan jong spider at heart worrying that my work can't be finished in due time.

It was that very night, that I felt a special touch from the Lord. Maybe nobody knows my struggles, He knows.. and that is enough. I felt light throughout my bus journey home that day, knowing he is with me, in me and for me..

Few weeks later, I went for the Holy Ghost meeting.. In the midst of that, I broke down in good tears remembering all that the Lord has done for me. Once again, 'He Knows', this word came into my mind and that really set me free despite having to climb mountains in every stage of my life.. Subsequently, coming to the end of the Holy Ghost Meeting, Pastor Henry revealed to the congregation that 'He Knows' what we are going through.. To me, that was really wow! It is so good that 'He Knows' even though everyone seem not to know..

Thus, cheer up! God knows what you are going through.. Because he is God! And He is a good one :)

The Lord is good!

Coming to t0 month end, was actually very poor, trying to make ends meet esp with the countless taxi trip that i took for work and health .. Nevertheless, my Father in Heaven is rich! Somehow or rather, I suddenly found extra $4 which I forgotten i saved few months back, and extra $30 in my bank account which I thought don't have.. At the same time, I got breakfast treat and lunch treat for the weekends.. hee. These solved my problems. At least the $$ at present I havecan last till my coming pay check and yeah, i don't need to borrow!

Lord, thanks!

Thank you Lord and all my loveds ones

As I look at my previous entry, it was early July.. Around 3 to 4 months since the last i came here. I have so much to share..



People always say times flies fast.. Agreed. At the same time, I also agreed that things take place fast.



A recap in the previous 4 months (July / Aug / Sept / Oct) (the happenings are in order)



My Struggles

-Cannot exercise

- Asthma and cough and fever

-Submit resignation and no income

-Pay $1000 for breaking contract

-Signing Letter of Acceptance from a job offer

-Diagnosed with a sickness

-Having to pay medical check up fee

-Lost the job offer

-Give Kit performance at NDP a miss simply I am too down

-Hopeless, and wanted to give the Lord and myself up totally first time in my life

-Having to take medicine everyday for 6 months

-Having to prove to my boss my capability when I feel sick from the side effects of medicine

-Having to learn new work system

-Having to build rapport with new colleagues



My breakthrough

-Can swim, can run, can play

-No asthma and cough

-Managed to resign and overcome poverty

-No more frequent fever

-Got the job offer

-Medical check up test was subsidized

-Catch Kit performance on repeated program

-I managed to pull myself up with all the encouragements and loves from my loved ones

-Having been consistent and obedient, medicine taking was reduced to 3 times a week and I am left with only about 3 more months, and will not need to take them anymore! Yeah!

- There are not much side effects from medicine now and have received good feedbacks from boss so far

-Get to know some colleagues better

-Had learned a lot of new things in work and will continue to learn.



Father,



I want to commit this blog to you. No words could ever express my gratitute to you, who stood by me and never gives me up, even when times when I said things that are so unholy, and without faith. Even at times, when I actually doubt you.



I knew very well in my heart that I could not survive without your strength and your loves. You let me know what is loves. And thank you for blessing me with my dear mum, dad, brother and sister, and all my dear brothers, sisters in Christ, and my beloved friends.

You are a good God that loves and bless. Thank you Father.